What It Used to Be

I’m not trying to find an excuse

I’m just trying to control my abuse

Cause I can’t figure out whether it makes me stronger or tears me down

I don’t hear a sound

 

I can feel the beating of my heart

It’s because I know we’re apart

Every breath I take without you I’m afraid that I will forget

Maybe I need a little help

 

Please, won’t you help me find a way

To get through all this mess I’m living in

Can’t you see, what I’m dealing with right now

What’s circling around

I just want to make this life feel right

To make this life feel right

 

So what I’m saying is that I’ve tried

I actually found the sun and the light

And I did try to make a way with the light but the sun went down

Mentally I ran out of time

 

While standing in the dark

I can only try to keep my head high

Cause I’m used to many solutions and I’m used to getting conclusions

I’m used to getting them fast

Cause I don’t want to live like in the past

 

Please, won’t you help me find a way

To get through all this mess I’m living in

Can’t you see, what I’m dealing with right now

What’s circling around

I just want to make this life feel right

To make this life feel right

 

I’m trying to find a way without you everyday

It’s not easy it’s not easy to find that way

But I’m trying yes I’m trying hard

 

But I’m not trying to find an excuse

I just want to be with you

Love you and feel you

Like I used to