Will It Ever Be?

I woke up in the middle of
all my friends were getting new IDs
And they lost their names just to change the frame so that it would fit a baby too
Love is in the air and they’re all prepared
to announce this is the rest of their lives

Oh how I wish I knew what to think
They look so happy, wrapped up in pink
It’s not right now, when will it come?
Will it ever be, true love?

So now I pretend that it’s not the end
but I know these friends are bound to change
It’s the different talk and the stroller walk
you’ve got a new grown glow inside your eyes
While I smiled and laughed looking at the past thinking we will never get it back

Oh how I wish I knew what to think
They look so happy, wrapped up in pink
It’s not right now, when will it come?
Will it ever be, true love?

Do I need some rules maybe I’m the fool
taking every next step way too slow
It’s a different world will I be that girl
who got beaten by the job she loved
When I meet that guy will I bear in mind
that the folks I know they didn’t last

Oh how I wish I knew what to think
They look so happy, wrapped up in pink
It’s not right now, when will it come?
Will it ever be, true love?

At times we’re all groping in the dark. Halfway through my twenties' explorative journey, a house, garden, kids and station car started popping up across the board. Was I falling behind? Could everybody else be premature in their decisions?

Questions in need of answers...

Running

It’s been years since I’ve seen you
I hope that you are doing fine
No one really knows, what’s on your mind

Every fifth year you’ll come see us
Say, I’m sorry, how’ve you been?
You pretend and lie when we let you in

Won't you stop running
When all good is in your life

Why are you running away?

Now you’ve finally found your daughter
Ain’t it good that she’s alright?
Still, we know you’re gonna leave
you’re gonna hide

While you’ve got the time to make it
Why don’t you just take the fight?
Turn around and start over, make it right

Instead of running
When all good is, in your life

Why are you running away?

It’s been a long without notice
All our worries start to fade
I asked your mom what you’re up to
She said God could no longer wait

You shouldn’t have been running

Looking for what's better
always makes us forget about
what we already have.

A Journey

Someone told me life isn’t gonna be easy
Then I told her about my road
She said darling don’t let it show

I was praying to God, today wouldn’t tear me apart
Though the rain was pouring down
I kept listening to the sound
Of the voice inside my heart singing

I’m here ’till the end
and I pray to God that’s not today
I’m keeping up to make you strong
please say your journey here will last long

I expected nothing like this
I thought that we were okay
Though the words never explained it
I felt all of your pain

I remember saying to myself; mama please wake up
Take her out of this hell
But please don’t make it stop

I’m here ’till the end
and I pray to God that’s not today
I’m keeping up to make you strong
please say your journey here will last long

This world is not a place without you
I wouldn’t know how to move on
I just pray, I just pray, I just pray
That someday – we will be okay

A song for listeners who want to listen.

My best friend opened up her heart and together we shared her story.

Something's Missing

I met a man who sold tickets to the moon
He said we’re taking off real soon
I’m waiting in line and the weeks pass by
The crowd grows, blinded by the sky

I am trapped in a maze
Where the truth is hard to find

Keep looking
Keep searching
No matter what I find

Now I find myself in a carrousel
Under faded lights, the midnight bell
Going round and round but the spin will end
I hear those longing words again

I am trapped in a maze
Where the truth is hard to find

Keep looking
Keep searching
No matter what I find

With open arms
Open heart, open mind

Keep looking
Keep searching
No matter what I find

I tried a bit of everything while I was growing up, but mostly avoided drawing too much attention to myself.

Trying to fit in felt like something was missing, so I kept looking.

Battlefield

I’ve seen love conquer
When everyone surrender
Bring the best heat
To the triumph
Someone call us out
From this troubled doubt
We can still go on, raise the flag

I’ve read the pages on and on
The tragedy of fallen love
This time we wont give op again
We’ll move,

On this battlefield
I will fight to let it heal
On this battlefield
I will fight to let us live

No use in love quotes
Forget what you’ve been told
We won't fit in, into their stories
Time won’t set you free
It’s not what you believe
Deep inside you’ll find, how to live it

I’ve read the pages on and on
The tragedy of fallen love
This time we won't give op again
We’ll move,

On this battlefield
I will fight to let it heal
On this battlefield
I will fight to let us live

This song is the closest we get to a real love song - let's fight for it!